I am me, and therefore not perfect.

I am done. He is annoying me right now. I hate that he thinks that I’ll take him back. Nope. He hurt me. I didn’t hurt him. He did this too fucking late. If he loved me, he wouldn’t have done this to me.

Wanna know what he did?

Well, he played the fields. He was flirting heavily with other women…and in front of me. I don’t regret all that I did. I tried. He wasn’t paying attention, and I don’t care, any more. :/ If he really wanted me, he wouldn’t have done that…he wouldn’t have turned everything else he did into my problem. And it’d be random too. He acted like a father to me. He wasn’t my “boyfriend,” he was my dad…Im glad he broke up with me. He was a player! >.>

Well, California…Im done with you. I’m done with all the shit from my parents, shit from everyone else, and the shit past neighbors have given me. Yes, Cali is a huge state, but I’m fed up with my “family.” I have no family. They’re all dead to me. So, Cali, how does it feel? How does it feel to know that you are losing me? Good, I bet. With your high class rules and horrible people backstabbing others. I’m quite glad that I’m leaving. ^_^ I’m happier than a clam. ^_^ I couldn’t be happier, California. Goodbye Cali! Goodbye to all your wasteful patrons. Your wasteful creeps and perverts. Hope you can learn your lesson-wait…no you can’t. You just wanna cry because a girl is leaving your belovéd state. Well, California, FUCK YOU! >.< I don’t need you! I am good without you! ^_^

Bye!
From Dracothedragon7.

My ex(whom I still love…btw) has been a huge part of me. I miss him. I need him…SO MUCH! It hurts when you see things that remind you of him constantly. I need him in my life, and he’s always going to be in my heart. <3 Alex…you see that heart, it’s for you. I love you.

Ugh! I miss you, Hector Alexis. Yes you. :3 I know it’s been a rough break-up, but why is this getting difficult? Last night I was busy. I was hanging out with friends. Just once. We didn’t even do anything. :/ I was bored out of my mind, and I was sick and cold. :( Should you read this, I love you, my love, and we need to talk, sweet pea. ;) if I were to cuddle you for the first time, I would be snuggling up against your warm body, wrap my arms around you, squeezing into you softly, and hold your body close to mine. Love you Hector Alexis. ;)

I think I will not see the day I get married. :/ it’ll be such a long long long time, and I might be dead before then. I don’t want to live that long, though. My ex is engaged, my boyfriend isn’t talking to me right now, and I prolly won’t see the day when we meet for the first time. :/ he’s in another state( in Massachusetts and I’m stuck in the west coast…Cali.)and I think it’s never gonna happen. :/ ugh. What do you think? #fatass

So, I was on minecraft late last night, trying to figure it out for my boyfriends’ sake( I wanted to impress him, and it was my first time with that kind of technology.) Tweaking it and twerking it around to get it to join a freaking server! >< I had it on “green” before, but he was offline, and mad at me. :/ So, we talked things out and all that. I showed him what I had done, and it seemed to impress him. The HARD pert of it all was that it kept going to red x on the connection. Got so frustrated, and he was asking me if I had done everything right. Yup. Check. installed everything, set it up, put it all together, tested it, worked before, now this.  I have worked SO hard to finally be able to get a freaking connection. :/ It took me HOURS( HOURS!!!!) to get it like this. :D PRAISE THE LORD! I am so happy that this happened. :) I feel blessed, now. :3

The stress and overwhelming weight of “vacation…” Well, not really vacation at all. More like Grandpas’ memorial, and mourning the loss of a great man. I flipped out on my BEST friend…well, not anymore. I lost two of them. I wanted to hang out with them, adn they COMPLETELY ignored the texts. I know I should’ve relaxed first. I should’ve done something else. :/ I shouldn’t have flipped out on Steven( i knew him since pre-k, basically…), and Shaina(who I knew since HS). I shouldn’t have. I’m a low-life for this. :/